From the moment we become aware, we are haunted by a singular feeling: that something is missing. This sense of being incomplete is not a personal flaw—it is the natural design of this existence. It is the fundamental illusion that keeps the wheel of life spinning.
To keep you moving, existence creates a complex network within you—a web of desires, fears, and “defilements.” But here is the subtle truth: The “me” you think is navigating this network doesn’t actually exist.
The “Internal Speed” of the Ego
Every human being lives in a state of intense struggle and discomfort. This isn’t because life is inherently “bad,” but because of an internal, delusional speed we build up. We are constantly trying to solve problems that we ourselves created.
When you are caught in this speed, you are swept away by the waves of the world. You strive to build:
- A stable life.
- A life without problems.
- A “perfect” version of yourself.
Even the search for ultimate liberation or “Nirvana” can become a part of this trap. When the “I” seeks peace, it is often just the ego looking for another trophy to own.
The Subtlety of the Dependent Path
The truth of Paticchasamuppada (Dependent Origination) is incredibly subtle. You truly begin to understand the Dhamma only when you see that even the desire to reach the end of the path is an illusion of the ego.
The ego wants to “arrive.” It wants to “attain.” But to the extent that you realize the depth of your own inner struggle and the falseness of your efforts, you begin to extinguish. You aren’t destroyed; rather, the delusion that you must live this life with such agonizing effort simply evaporates.
Life as a Divine Theater
Stop seeking a specific destination. Stop demanding a specific direction or a state of “perfection.” This existence is not a laboratory where you are being tested; it is a theater full of extremely crazy dramas and characters.
- Know the illusion: See the stage for what it is.
- Understand the script: Recognize that your problems are often props.
- Act your part: Play your role in the world, but do so with the knowledge that your character will never be the ultimate reality.
The Paradox of Everything and Nothing
When the boundaries of the self dissolve, you reach the ultimate realization: There is everything in everything, and nothing in everything.
You are free from the burden of being “someone.” When you stop trying to fix the illusion, you finally find the peace that the illusion was hiding. You no longer live for a destination; you live because the rhythm of existence is simply happening.