We are taught that the spiritual path is a climb—a constant effort to reach God, Nirvana, or ultimate peace. We spend our lives trying to “pacify” our desires, struggling to calm the chaos of the mind.
But here is the radical truth: The struggle for peace is still a struggle. Even the search for liberation can become a fire that burns you. When you stop trying to pacify the self and instead allow the self to disappear, the real journey begins.
The Trap of the “Spiritual” Ego
Whether you are chasing worldly wealth or chasing enlightenment, the mechanism is the same: Desire.* The Mindpursues external desires (success, validation).
- The Soul pursues internal desires (silence, tranquility).
Your life becomes a battlefield between these two forces. You spend your energy trying to escape yourself, running toward a “mirage” of who you think you should be. You take your identity for granted, never realizing it is the very thing keeping you in a “mental prison.”
Mindfulness as the “Death” of Identity
We often hear that mindfulness is a tool for relaxation. In reality, Mindfulness is your inaction. It is the death of your manufactured identity.
When you practice mindfulness without acting on your desires, you begin to dissolve. You are no longer the “seeker,” the “worker,” or the “sufferer.” You are simply the awareness. This inaction is what breaks the bars of your unconscious prison.
“Mindfulness is not a way to fix your life; it is the realization that the ‘you’ who needs fixing is an illusion.”
Entering the Dark Abyss
What happens when you finally forget the world and move within? You encounter the Dark Abyss. To the ego, this abyss is terrifying because it looks like nothingness. But to the conscious soul, this abyss is the source of everything.
- It is a place where you are conscious and alert, yet you have no “story.”
- It is where you disappear as an individual and reappear as the Truth.
- In this deep, alert silence, the struggle ends.
How to Practice the Art of “Disappearing”
- Stop the Pacification: Stop trying to “calm” your mind. Just watch it. Let the fires burn without feeding them.
- Give up the Identity: Ask yourself, “Who am I when I am not trying to be enlightened?”
- Embrace Inaction: Sit in silence without an agenda. Don’t even try to “meditate.” Just be the space in which everything happens.
The “you” that you have protected for so long is the only thing standing in your way. When you give up the struggle, you don’t lose anything—you simply awaken to the fact that Paradise was never something you had to earn. It was what was left when you finally stopped running.